HOLD ME JESUS

Well, sometimes my life
Just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big
And my faith just seems so small

CHORUS
So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't you be my Prince of Peace


And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart

CHORUS
So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't you be my Prince of Peace

Surrender don't come natural to me
I'd rather fight You for something
I don't really want
Than to take what You give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees

And this Salvation Army band
Is playing this hymn
And Your grace rings out so deep
It makes my resistance seem so thin

CHORUS
So hold me Jesus, 'cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory
Won't you be my Prince of Peace
(4x)

You have been King of my glory
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

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This year has been a year like no other in all of my close to 29 years. This year has truly made me question everything I believe in. It has been the most challenging year of my entire life. I've known heartache greater this year than any other time in my life.

I lost my son. I lost my best friend. I lost my fiance. I lost the mother I once knew. She has now been replaced with this cold empty shell of a woman. At one point this year, I even lost myself and I almost lost my life.

Now I was just informed that my Bishop has decided to resign from the church he founded. It was God who gave HIM the vision, the purpose, and told him to start the church. I'm not sure if he is retiring from ministry altogether. I doubt it. But it has been stated that he is resigning from our church. I am saddened to no end about this announcement, but knowing what I know and the pain of church hurt, I can't honestly say that I blame him. And the part that is really getting to me is that I know I very much contributed to the pain.

This has truly been a year of new beginnings. A year of exchange…I've had to exchange everything I know and everything I stood on and truly trust that God will hold me up.

My heart is real heavy…

Please pray for me and my family…

I don't know how much more of "this year" I can stand….

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