When did I get to this point?…Just existing….not really doing anything meaningful or enjoying life. No purpose..plenty of hopes and dreams….my mind is filled with fantasies and dayreams…my brain is overflowing with wishes and hopes….but no real plan of making these visions reality.
I’ve been single for over 10 years now…Not just anyone can break that streak..he has to be someone really special and sad to say..No one fits that bill that is trying to get at me right now.. (sorry fellas , not trying to offend or hurt ya feelings, but what I feel is what it is).
Does your life ever turn out like you plan? Is anything I dream for really gonna ever be a reality? My job is going is nowhere (Sorry Powers that be) I think it all has to do with me I hate routine..and doing the same thing over and over and over and over and over and over and over…. If I freakin’ say “Thank you for calling “—- –“, my name is Farrah, may I please have your business telephone #, starting with the area code first?” I am going to freaking’ scream….
I aways used to say when I was younger that I would NEVER grow up to be like my parents or just about everyone else I know- JUST EXISTING..working a meaningless job ONLY for the money.. drifting aimlessly through the day like a zombie..wishing either life or death would come and end this catatonic state that I am in….. Just existing!